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A Means To An End

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Closing a chapter is never easy. When you struggle for years with a problem and it is suddenly over, there is a certain struggle you have internally no matter the benefit or resolution. This is what I am struggling with currently. On Wednesday, October 19, 7 years and one month to the minute that I was injured at work, my case was closed with a settlement agreement that benefited both sides. I feel like I am walking through the stages of grief as I struggle to grasp that this huge part of my world is now over. They own my ankle until I die but I am the one who has a life-long struggle ahead of me. I will never really walk normal again, I have a brace I need to wear anytime I walk, and I will never be able  walk Disney or go to a concert without a wheelchair or power scooter. But it is over now and I will find my groove once again.

 

My focus remains on school, Furious, and my girls. As long as I keep things in perspective, I will be okay as I always am. I am no stranger to struggling and being victorious somehow. To me, it is the human will to survive and a woman’s determination to overcome. As long as I keep my drive and my will to survive, I will be okay and I have a tremendous support system (Lookin at you, Grif!). Th people who believe in and need me are the ones who I fight for. My girls, my parents, Tiff, Grifter, even X who lives in Philly but I consider to be one of my besties because she rocks!,  to name just a few who are there when I need with no questions ask and who I will eternally fight for and support. I keep my circle small for a reason and those I let close, for the most part, never disappoint me.

 

So the new story has begun. As much as I am struggling with the decision, I feel liberated and relief. I can step forward and move on without this hanging over me. Despite that this is only one aspect of my fight, I think I can safely say, “I’ve got this!”. On Monday, speaking of which, I begin part two of this class that I honestly did not think I would get through. But I did. With an A. I guess I am starting to believe in myself more and more. Weight-loss, the end of a court battle, school, helping to lead Furious towards a new path….I am pretty awesome. My flaws make me a unique being.

 

So here we are. How was your week? Are you ready for the new week to begin? No matter how good, bad, or indifferent you are; I believe in you. You’ve got this!

 

Music Madness:  I am stuck on Shinedown – It All Adds Up and Krizz Kaliko – Talk Up On It till. What are you listening to this week?

 

Kitchen Kauldron:  I am hooked on making my own tortilla chips. It is so easy to do and cheaper than buying a bag of processed bs with too much salt. This week, I found a recipe for homemade chili cheese fritos and I cannot wait to try them! I will let you know how they come out but they are fairly simple!

 

Coffee Chaos:  Those who know me, know I am obsessed with ice coffee. Lately I am experimenting with making a heath bar ice coffee that rivals Dunkins. I like the Heath Bar creamer you can buy, but I am determined to make one from scratch. To date, my favorite is still the chocolate pudding iced. It took a bit to not make the pudding mix thicken, but I got it and it tastes divine.

 

Weekly WTF: What happened to people using their directionals when driving? Is it really this difficult? Asshole!

 

 

Until next time….be good or be good at it!

AUTHOR - S1N

S1N, AKA “Boston”, leads the Boston Chapter and DJs on Furious Radio. You can find her sitting under the bar, making iced coffees, or writing while wearing her dragon slippers. She’s a Red Sox fan, musically minded, and tries her best to be good… or be good at it.

4 Comments
  • Dutch | Nov 1, 2016 at 12:02 AM

    I’ll tell ya what I can’t stop listening to “Stressed Out” by twenty one pilots. Yeah yeah I know “Heathens” made em popular but I really like it. Try listening to “House of Gold too!”

    How in the hell do you make your own Tortilla Chips? “HAVE A QUESADILLA!”

  • Frank | Nov 3, 2016 at 11:17 AM

    I SEE YOU DID IT, YOU FOUGHT THRU IT! CONGRATS!

    NOW KEEP ON TRUCKING

  • X | Nov 3, 2016 at 7:23 PM

    I am that asshole- sometimes my turn signals decide not to work!
    And YOU ROCK too xoxo

  • S1N | Nov 3, 2016 at 10:18 PM

    X- I will make sure to NOT drive behind you. I get road rage due to that! lol

    Frank- I DID!!! I am so fuckin proud of myself!

    Dutch- I am a fan of them all around! They are pretty good! Tortilla chips are easy! #googlethat

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