A Week In Review…While Internet is Cooperating
“And just fake it if your’re out of direction
Fake it if you don’t belong
Just fake it if you feel like affection
Woah your’re such a fuckin’ hypocrite” – Seether
Life has been a cascade of mishaps and misfortune this week and I feel like the universe is giving me lessons I keep learning over and over and do not need them anymore. Regardless, I push forward and continue to smile, spending time with Bean and Lala and trying to sleep when my mind shuts off. My sleep schedule is busted and flipped, but I always have been a night owl anyhow.
So today the internet has decided to be a complete douche and Cumcast says they are on it. Here we are at 5:30 and it looks like they may be correct. I just need to finish up some things for homework and post before I go on air tonight. Not only did my laptop die, Lala’s did too. My cell phone screen is shattered and my desktop monitor has a big circle of dead pixels. Lovely….technology hates me.
On Saturday, we said goodbye to my cousin and laid him to rest. 27 years old and gone now. It is still hard to fathom but sheds light on the state of mental illness in this country. A lesson learned that no one is safe and my studies of psychology are urgently needed. I promised I would use him as my motivation to finish my Master’s and do good in the world. But seeing his sister and parents in shambles broke me more than I expected. Especially my Uncle who I seem to be bonding with more and more in the last few years. I just wish I could take their pain away. But goodbyes are hard and now everyone can try and make sense of life once again.
I have been quiet lately. Not much to say out loud but this nagging, lonely feeling that plagues me a lot. I know it is the chaos of life, death, and my mind that is battling me but I am trying to not let that get in the way. I am making it a mission to find one thing that makes me smile a day and use that. I have also been writing more as well, which is always a plus. Thank gods for Loppy and CJ coming to chill in chat with me. They always tend to make me smile.
So that is my week in a nutshell.
Things are slowly sliding back to normal.
DIY: So I recently read that you can use dryer sheets behind fans and on an AC filter to freshen the room up. We shall see. Between that and homemade Febreze I make constantly now, My house smells awesome. Next DIY trick, homemade wax tarts.
Press Play: Ever looked for a song and can only think of a few words? Yeah, I have been hunting a song down for 3 weeks now and still cannot find it!
Popcorn Worthy: Better late than never….The Following is an awesome show! I also watched Gypsy on Netflix. Naomi Watts is awesome in it!
Kitchen Kaos: Last night I made a standard garlic cream sauce, diced up leftover lemon pepper chicken, then threw frozen tortellini in the wok to cook and meld together. For leftovers and a quick meal it was amazing.
Weekly WTF: Thank you AT&T for being assholes. I am currently shopping around for new service and I think T Mobile is the best bet. My business is going elsewhere and your customer service SUCKS! Fuck you.
Until next week…..be good or be good at it.
I think my sadness is turning into aggression. Good luck to anyone who deals with me lately.