Breathe in….Breathe out…..
“It said bring your fire
Go lift your burden take it off of me
But I’m no liar
We’re just a broken set of memories” -Taryn Manning
There have been some changes here that lift a large burden off of my shoulders and gave me hope after such a violent storm. Life can be so messy and crazed but I am glad this part of it is all over. School starts in a few weeks here again and my courses are going well. It is nice writing and not feeling that nagging, intense stress I was feeling last week. Some smaller details are ironing out but at the end of the day I think we are out of the woods. Not much has been going on to be honest as far as activity. School, Bean, bed. I am averaging about 4 hours a night now which is a huge improvement. Now I just need to get Bean on some schedule. Other than my trip to Philly, I can honestly say the last few months have sucked and I am so glad for a new beginning. I am fairly solitude lately and not minding it at all. Keeping to myself means no lies, no drama, and no bullshit.
The world seems to be upside down lately outside of my walls and it is discerning. The hate I see people spew at others, the government, the general bullshit is really tiring. I cannot hide forever, unfortunately. Sooner or later all things must be faced and the core of life has to be re-centered. While some people I know think that the core revolves around them, I am happy to say no it does not. Kindly go fuck yourself. 😀
So yes, I am getting back to my sarcastic, impish ways and fighting fire with fire. I refuse to let it beat me down, although last week I was ready to submit. My lawyer is back in action and another court date is being set. Hopefully my own life continues forward on this positive path and I can finish my degree and kick some ass. My instructor this course is amazing and has helped navigate me through the rough patch to ensure I stay on track and I have two new friends, Ash and Rhea, who are incredible people and have been so amazing from my cousin killing himself to just day-to-day life. I am excited to see where this journey brings us and trust them both whole-heartedly.
I had a conversation recently about giving up the blog. I was asked why I continue if no one reads or comments. Well, not all blogs pick up right away and at some point, someone will see it and encourage others to read. Progress is not made overnight and even though I can be angry, sarcastic, sad, etc. I am a pretty amazing woman with a lot to say. Someday, my voice will be heard and if for now it is only two or three people who read this, I am good with that. So, I will keep writing until I am a living legend!
Bring the noise….
Weekly WTF – Every time I fill the ice cube trays, I spill some. Seriously! No matter how fucking careful I am, I leave water everywhere. Even on the floor of the freezer. Trying to save money by making ice and all I make is a mess. Is it just me?!
Kitchen Kauldron – While this did not come out of my kitchen, my mom made killer Pesto for family dinner on Sunday. There is nothing better than fresh basil pesto plucked from her garden. With a few adjustments, she would make it perfectly. I think next week I will make a homemade sauce using farm veggies and herbs from her garden.
Press Play – I am addicted to Taryn Manning’s new song GLTCHLFE. It is seriously my mantra right now and her voice is awesome.
Popcorn Worthy – Nothing is catching my eye lately, but I plan on trying to watch Ozark on Netflix to see if I can get into it. Although, I did watch Sons of Anarchy again…. all 7 seasons while I did other things.
Until next week….be good or be good at it!