“I had my ups and downs
Trials and tribulations,
I overcome it day by day,
Feeling good and almost powerful
A new me, that’s what i’m looking for” – Sugarbabes
I have been so off this week as far as what day it is. I almost forgot that today is Thursday and my blog is suppose to be updated. Between working hard on F9 and trying to get my life on track, I have been so hyper-focused on things I have forgotten to step back and breathe. I suppose it is because last week was such as mess, but as always I will *Fight Thru It!* and move on. Ya know, this blog title really resonates for many things. Funny, emotional, or just life itself, we are all fighting something and continue to move forward.
This week I see how strong I am. Even at times I feel the weakest, something always reminds me that I have fought through hell and still bounce back and forward. Every step I take, it seems like I get shoved back 10. Yet I continue to get up and move on. We all do in some way,we just don’t really see it until we look back and wonder how we did. It is pretty phenomenal when you truly look at it.
Every week, I update the countdown to F9 and I am so excited to see people’s faces. I feel like every year Dutch and I figure out a way to work the budget to give people something different and fun. The other night when we hung up after a 3 hour conversation, I sat back and realized what an amazing friend I have. So let me tell you a little story….
I met Dutch when I was at my lowest point. I had fallen at work and was severely injured. I am still fighting those injuries today actually. I did not know how long I would be out of work and I was looking for something, anything to distract myself and fill this weird void of loneliness I had. On December 24th, I met Dutch (and Josey X) after a long day of pain and then playing “Santa”. Bean was only 2 and a half at the time. Although I never expected the conversation to go anywhere, here I am 6 years later and I could not ask for a better friend or closer friend.
People do not realize how much work we put into Furioustival every year. If you could see the excel sheet we have, you would only see a third of how complex things can be. No matter how small, we talk anywhere between 3-9 hours on average just to prepare and work the budget perfectly. We make no money off it, we still have to pay to go, and we deal with many bullshit excuses, complaints, and stress from January until Furioustival is over. We make calls, argue with vendors, plan and re-plan 5 or 6 times until we reach the point that all we can do is wait and then watch the weekend go by. We take time away from family, school, and life just to make everyone else happy. While we have fun, people never truly realize what we sacrifice so everyone else has an amazing time. Sometimes we wonder why we do it, but we do it because we love our fam and cherish the time we spend together that one weekend a year.
But sometimes it feels thankless. Remember, we also have to work on Furious while the planning goes on and maintain the station as we go. Some nights we hang up at 3 AM, exhausted and frustrated, blurry eyed from staring at a monitor and hands hurting from holding the phone and typing. But we always take time to talk about how we are and make sure the other person is okay. We fight sometimes and argue like cat and dog, sometimes I wanna kill him (metaphorically speaking and never really), but we hang up and I have to smile, knowing how much I am grateful for a friend like he is to me.
So here’s the point to it all:
BE THANKFUL FOR THE PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE AND TELL THEM YOU APPRECIATE THEM.
Sometimes it feels like people take me for granted and expect me to always be there with open arms. But real life doesn’t work that way. That is why I always try to thank Dutch for all the hard work he does for Furious, Furioustival, and the station….but also for being my best friend, confidant, and a part of my soul. Every year he gets me a gift to say thank you to me….an iPad, a wine glass, a wooden 6-pack holder I use daily, etc. I still have the towel he gave me and the special gift (on loan for now) that I guard with my life. It won’t be long before that tassel is returned and my Master’s degree is complete; he is my biggest fan.
So thank you, Dutch. For everything you do and for all the hard work you put in. I know it isn’t easy and I know we work exhaustively, but you are infinitely appreciated for all you do.
So, reader, how is YOUR week going?
The show must go on…
Press Play: Right now my playlist is Sugarbabes, Staind, Three Days Grace, Emarosa, Stealing Eden, and some Prince.
Kitchen Kauldron: I am planning on making a huge pot of homemade red gravy (sauce) with tomatoes and my mom’s herbs from her garden. I will let you know and show you the end product once I make it.
Popcorn Worthy: No movies this week but I finally got into Orange is the New Black and I started watching Wentworth as suggested by Dutch. Any good movies I should watch?
Weekly WTF: DO WHAT YOU SAY YOU ARE GOING TO DO!!! I know things happen but damn. Enough is enough!
Furioustival 9 Countdown: 3 MONTHS!!!!!