Eyebrows and Questions
“Hard to breathe when you lose control
Hard to live with the words unspoken
I walk away ’cause I got no home
Empty hole and my body’s shaking” Sleeping with Sirens
Another week down, another week of anxiety but a little less. I think I am at the point that I realize stressing won’t help and I am doing what I can. Xmas is going to be small it seems but wtf can I do? It sucks, but eh. I am becoming apathetic to the bullshit. When I see people claiming how amazing Trump is for the economy and how he is adding jobs, I have to wonder where because I apply to 7-8 a week and have nothing yet. I guess it only matters if you are rich to them, though.
So many things to say and never enough time. Thanksgiving was ok. Not as bad as expected. I found out the picture I have in my locket of my uncle is the last picture taken of him. Somehow, I feel like he is still with us. Cheesy, I know. But if it brings me comfort I will believe anything at this point. It makes me dig deeper, though. I wonder where people go when they die. I mean, I believe in reincarnation but maybe I am wrong. With all these people dying and coming back to life, I would think there would be some solid answers. Then again, I can’t even get a solid answer to why we have eyebrows. They seem so pointless. Someone once said it was to keep sweat out of our eyes. Well, that doesn’t work. I still get sweat in my eyes. So, your theory is wrong.
I hate when things are uncertain. I wish life came with some absolutes other than you are born and die. I hate when things are up in the air and I have no idea how to fix them. I mean, sometimes it helps having others to look at the problem with you and come up with a plan of action. More and more I just feel alone. I rarely see anyone. With my phones off, I don’t really speak to anyone. Which brings up another point. The holidays are rough for a lot of people. It isn’t always happy and cheer. Make sure you check in on people who have depression and anxiety. Make sure you let them know they are not alone. Tell them you care and are there for them. Between X sending me Snaps and Loppy checking in on me…they have really helped me feel less lonely and like I still have people who care. Take care of each other.
Under and Over It….
Press Play – I am digging the song quoted above. Also check out the group Through Fire. They rock.
Popcorn Worthy – WTF Scandal….is Quinn dead or not?! I don’t want to wait til February. There are a few movies coming out that look amazing! The one about Charles Dickins and the circus guy to name a few. Can’t wait to see them!
Skool Daze – Freud amuses me. I think his explanation for my oral fixation is wrong though. Sometimes you are just kinky!
Kitchen Kauldron – We have had breakfast for dinner a few times. Cheap and easy. I can’t wait to have the ability to buy a bunch of stuff and start creating again.
Weekly WTF – Why is Starbucks so expensive and why do people pay so much for it? I got a $10 gift card and could barely make use of it. And their sizes are fucked up….Now I see why I don’t go there!
Alright…I am out of commentary…be good or be good at it!