I don’t belong here….
“I want you to notice
When I’m not around
You’re so fuckin’ special
I wish I was special” -Radiohead
I need some inspiration. Something that shakes me a little in a positive way. I know it is coming when I leave reality for a few days and go to Philly. But seriously I need the relaxation and stress release.
Things haven’t been bad here per se, but the stress of every day life is intense. I know it will pass but today is a rough one. Living in chronic pain is like everything, good and bad days, today is a negative. This heat is not helping which is a catch 22…it helps some of the aches and pains but kills my ankle. I cannot win! And as I type that I am laughing, because anything else might send me over the deep end and I may throw shit.
School is rapidly approaching the end of this class, thanks gods. I am learning a lot but my brain feels like it will explode at any minute. Funny that it feels like that seeing I am studying the mind. See the irony in it?
Boston Blonde made another appearance and is coming over tomorrow for a little. We have plans to make and a trip to take. We are down to a few weeks and it is so exciting. Even my girls are looking forward to it. Spending time with Blonde keeps me a bit less insane. Not much…she is as fucked up as I am 😉 I guess that is why we get along so well.
Is it hot there? Yeah, back to the weather. As you can tell my thought process is chaos. But today it will hit 90*again. Probably higher. The humidity is killing it. Hopefully it won’t be as hot in Philly. I may wilt. At least the event for Saturday will be cool…even though no one knows what it is but Dutch and I! I cannot wait to see everyone’s faces!!!!
The job hunt continues. Disability appeal is underway. And I am doing a-ok. Despite the chaos things always get better after a fall. Nothing stays negative all the time and I need to focus on that. My break is coming, I get Dutch and Loppy hugs, I get to harrass Eric and hug Frank, In a few weeks, life will be good again.
On to the next one:
Coffee Chaos: Take your favorite ice cream, I used peanut butter cup, blend with cream and a dash of coffee, and add it to your unsweetened iced coffee, Top with a little more cream if you like it light. OMG it is amazing!
Kitchen Kauldron: Sammiches for dinner again….no cooking….too hot.
RIP: Chris Cornell….damn this is a loss. Roger Ailes of Fox News died….see ya in hell.
WEEKLY WTF: Jesus Christ…..why is it when things go bad for the right wingers, HRC and Obama get thrown out there. Own your fucking mistakes and your choice of president.
Popcorn Worthy: I am anxiously waiting for Keepers to come on Netflix and to see my man, Charlie Hunnam, in King Arthur. I need a guy with hot steel between his thighs and a cut on his back. It makes me weak.
Press Play: Radiohead is singing Creep…..love love love it!
F9 Countdown: 3 weeks!