New Norms and No Sleep
“I don’t know what’s worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean
I don’t know how I got this way
I’ll never be alright” -Linkin Park
My days and nights are flipped lately and there isn’t much to say this week. I am not sure if it is my own depression or I am still reeling from losing my cousin but when I finally got up today, I saw that Chester Bennington committed suicide and was found this morning. Things have been chaotic here and life doesn’t always make sense but I hope I can complete this and nap before I have to be on air.
Yesterday, I received a call that fucked my day up royally. Lala was at work and they were locking the doors because a young man, armed, ran from police and they could not find him. As a mom, I could do nothing but wait and hope things did not escalate. I could not go to her. I could not drive there and check in. I just waited. The hour went by spastically slow but they soon found him and the lock down was lifted. Lala was in decent spirits when she got home….but it made me think.
This….this is the world we live in. I am not sure how things got so bad but why are we seeing escalated suicides and rampant gunmen? I grew up in the post-Columbine and post-9/11 world and nothing seems to be getting better. Maybe I am just overwhelmed by everything lately. These “lessons” I am being thrown are unneeded at this point. I get it. I need a break before life fucks me a little bit more. But I totally see why people look at psych wards as vacations. I really think my mind is bent at this point. Then again, I am not a nice person and while contemplating why life sucks I can think of 9 insults to people and how politically incorrect I am. Funny how things work! 😉
This is all temporary. I know things will look better after sleep and a day where I do not have to function as a human. Life always ebbs and flows and circles around until we reach the beginning and start over in the cycle. I just wish I was dumb enough to think life was good. Then I wouldn’t know any better I guess. I still have no idea how people support Trump either….maybe it’s the world going insane and I am just here?
Weekly WTF: A few more weeks and everything will be pumpkin spice. Kill me now!
Press Play: Ironically I was listening to Linkin Park last night before bed. Today it is a random plethora of wtf, Halsey, Linkin Park, Breaking Benjamin, and Skillet to name a few. I wanna go see Skillet live tomorrow night but probably won’t make it.
Popcorn Worthy: So recently I binge watched The Following. SERIOUSLY!? NO season 4? Kevin Bacon needs to do something about this…..please!
Coffee Chaos: COCONUT CREAM PIE RULES! But it is leaving soon. I need one right now!
Until next week……be good or be good at it guys. And be nice to people you give a shit about!