Somewhere I know
I know I’ll never live in chains
The one is now aware
So stay away from me
I’m just too young to care” – Stone Sour
I really want to sing this at karaoke on Friday night when we go out. I am so excited about F9 and it is only 8 days away now! Every year it seems like forever then – BOOM -! Here it is! I am working with my uncle this week for my F9 money and I am so fucking tired today. I was up, like a nerd, until 2 AM before I finally stopped studying and went to bed. This week we are wrapping up final papers and learning about problem-solving which has been really interesting. It is so amazing what our mind/brain does without us even realizing the processes, including how we solve problems. Every class I question my sanity and why I do school and then as the course is wrapping up I see how much I truly have learned. It is not only a good thing, but it really is empowering to be so educated and getting A’s, showing myself I can do this and I will graduate with a high GPA. Not perfect, but high.
At one point, I was so worried about that number. A GPA can be so limiting and stressful. But an instructor and I were talking one day and she said that she knows brilliant people who never got a perfect 4.0 in college and went on to do amazing things…just like I will. That conversation sticks with me now and seeing how much I am learning really drives that home for me. But it also amazes me how we get stuck on a number and judge ourselves on it. We pressure ourselves to the point that we get stressed and angry when it is not perfect. While I am not saying that hard work is not important, I am saying that people are more than a number.
I feel like I am in a good place. I am trying hard to not stress about things and worry until I get sick. In 8 days I will see my family, the Furious crew, and be me. I can sit back, relax, and be happy with who I am. I think that is what I love about the Furious fam. No matter what you weigh, how tall you are, you are amazing and loved just as you are. There are very few places in the world you can say that about. Sure, I dress up and put makeup on…but only because I am so beautiful. It has been a hard road learning that one!
So this week I am working hard at school and to make money…I am preparing for an amazing weekend with my Furious fam….
and I am happy to be me!
Press Play: Stone Sour’s Tired has been stuck in my head, along with the song For Good from the musical Wicked. Also in the playlist is Def Leppard, Santana, and Default – Wasting My Time
Popcorn Worthy: June 9….Orange is the New Black…..ARE YOU FUCKING READY?!!
Weekly WTF: #covfefe……..enuff said
F9 Countdown: 8 Days!!!!!!!!
Conversations with Eric: It is almost October! Get ready!!!!
Wonderful World: Have you seen the northern lights before? Check this article out about a phenomenon called Steve!
Short and sweet! Time to get ready for work! Be good guys…or be good at it! Have an amazing day and weekend!