“Down to my last match fire I touch just to feel
Why is it easier to burn than it is to heal?” – The Chainsmokers
I wish I had more to say this week but chaos always ensues and the dust is finally setting. I have been talking with Grif a lot and I can feel the angst as June gets closer to us. Money is laid out, plans are made, hotel is set, before I know it the weekend will be here. It makes me feel alive. Like a part of me makes sense again. It is my constant and my family will be there awaiting me. So close….so far away.
Next week I have my big appointment and I am scared shitless. I am not sure why it has me so panicked but I know this is a HUGE step to a new me. Whatever the case, it is happening and I am braving it on my own. I have more strength than I give myself credit for. I am working hard to not let things build up and let things go before I explode. That is normally easier said than done but as I get older, I realize some things can impact you without you even realizing it. The way humans survive is such an incredible fete. Even in the darkest moments, we try and shift focus to drag us through.
The other night, Grif and I realized I am almost half way through my Master’s degree. It is insane to think about it. I am debating on doubling up some classes to allow me to finish sooner, my goal is to finish in the next year instead of year and a half. I am so proud of myself for working hard on who I am and changing myself for the positive. FOR ME. School, weight loss, nice smile…. I am on my way to being outside what I am inside. I find myself walking a little taller and smiling a bit brighter. I am very excited for the future. I think I am gonna be amazing.
We celebrated my Grammy this weekend. She has always been the rock of my family and she is going strong! I guess I get a lot of who I am from her and my mother. Strong, amazing women who fight daily to be amazing and influence those they love. Who could be a better role model?
“You can try to steal my air
I’m not going anywhere but up
Up, anywhere but up” -Star Darlings
Weekly WTF: Really, Mother Nature?! Enough of the bi-polar already. No more snow for now. It is almost spring! That is your last storm…please?!
Popcorn Worthy: Grif got me turned on to Wentworth. Holy hell it is a great show!!!!! Check it out on Netflix.
Furioustival 9 Countdown: 12 weeks!!!
Coffee Chaos: A local place has banana split and boston cream ice coffee…. omg it is amazing. I am getting a cold coffee brewer soon. I can’t wait to be creating my own brews and blends. Stay Tuned!!!!
Short and sweet but it has been a slow week as I push through my final weeks of this class. Be good or be good at it, guys and check me out on air when you can! Tuesday and Thursday 10 PM eastern.
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