Snow and The Holidays
“And all I can say is I’m sorry for breaking
All I can do is just promise to love you, so messy
Our love came falling from the clouds
Broken and shattered on the ground
But if you need me to
I’ll pick up the pieces for ya” -Taryn Manning
We got an email today that due to inclement weather, tomorrow will be a half day for all students. Apparently, there is a storm brewing. Not only outside, but inside as well. Things have been so uncertain lately and sometimes I find it hard to breathe. The mind gets to the point of breaking down and a heart gets so close to shattering. But then something happens. Something shifts. It can be a smile, a word, even just a moment of clarity when there is reassurance. What happens when there are so many words you can’t find them anymore? It snows.
You may have no idea what I mean. But I know. A select few will figure it out. So many things are metaphorical in life. In winter, the earth dies. The blanket covets what lies beneath so in the spring life can be reborn. But I like the winter and all it’s metaphors. I like watching the snow in the bitter cold when your nose freezes so quickly you have to exhale and warm yourself. I like the way it refreshes things. You can smell it, feel it. You can taste it and realize it isn’t so cold. It melts on your tongue.
Maybe I’m a hopeless romantic who sees things in a way that I find life in everything. Even in my darkest moments, I can find symbolism in things around me. Maybe it is how I cope and how I figure things out in my head. Or maybe there’s a reason behind it all. My world, my life has come crashing down in so many ways lately. It doesn’t take much sometimes. Everyone knows I am high strung and reactive. Once that passes I shift and I am level headed and reasonable. But I have to feel first. It’s part of what makes us human.
Xmas is coming. Quickly. Which means a new year is upon us. New life, new love, and a new purpose has already begun to find me. It just has some bumps before things can get better. Everything does. It’s the calm before the storm. But once the storm is over, there is a newness and a refreshing breath where you can say…we made it.
By the time I write again, Xmas will be over, and the new year will be closer. It usually makes me sad, but this year is ending on a positive note. My birthday comes just after the new year starts so that is even better. Hopefully you all have a great holiday and make sure you tell the people you love how important they are to you. Usually I have a bunch of stuff at the bottom. But because of the season, I am ending this blog a different way….
On Dec. 24th it’s my Friendiversary with Grifter. Yep, 8 years ago on Xmas eve I met Grifter and he became the best friend I ever had. Thank you, Grif. I adore you!
Loppy – What can I say that I already haven’t. You are with me through so much and still love me at the end. June cannot come quick enough, so I can get my Loppy hugs. Thank you for being my constant!
To X – Beautiful girl. I miss you and adore you. Thanks for your smiles and for being so awesome.
To Frank and the Dream Team – I miss you guys and can’t wait to have a drink with you all. I hope all of you have an amazing Xmas. Even Eric…even though he never COMMENTS.
To my listeners – Happy Holidays! No matter what you celebrate, or if you don’t, make the day great!
And finally….to my Devil….thank you for being my snow. I love you!
-Until next time peoples. Be good or be good at it!