Turkey Day and Missing Him

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Another holiday. Another day to deal with family, stress, and the like.


I wouldn’t really celebrate much today. But this day is for my kids now and I hide my hell deep inside, smile, and pretend I am ok.


My uncle was only 7 years older than me and from the day I was born, he was the closest to me.  He knew my secrets, he knew my singing, he knew my passion for music. I still remember him introducing me to Guns N Roses. He loved the Use Your Illusion cassettes. I remember watching one of the videos on MtV with him. He loved all kinds of music, especially rock. It is where I found my love for it. My passion.


My uncle passed away November 23. I know the exact time, the exact place, and exactly when a piece of me went with him. I could feel it. I remember that morning and police at my house. I remember the chaos and trying to wrap my head around it all. Even now, I still can’t. And what’s worse, that memory lives with all of us. As hard as I try to have a good Thanksgiving with my family. It is always tense and sad, and it doesn’t matter what I do. I miss him. With all of my being. He was the closest thing I had to a brother. He was my world. And then he was gone. I still have never listened to Guns N Roses November Rain because of his death. He was 21, it was raining that night in November, and they were his favorite.


I am thankful for my girls. I am thankful for Furious giving me an outlet to play music, write to all of you, and to my Furious Family I am thankful for you too.


I wish I had more for you all. Things have been crazy as I try to work my way out of the rut I have been in. I still don’t have my phones on but at least I can still get online. I wish I could post all these amazing trips and being out with friends like the Philly blog. But sadly, my life isn’t like that so instead, I bare my soul to you all. Sad, mad, happy, whatever. And I am thankful for you all listening.


Have a Happy Thanksgiving for those who celebrate.



Press Play –  I am so addicted to Slaves and Issues. Their music is amazing. Emarosa and Stealing Eden are also in there.


Popcorn Worthy – I have been watching SoA again…mmm Jax


Weekly WTF – That turkey pardon is dumb. WTF


Skool Daze – New class and one step closer!!!!


Coffee Chaos – To jazz up my iced coffee I put in some ice cream to sweeten it. This week was chocolate marshmallow! Yummy!




Be good everyone…or be good at it!


S1N, AKA "Boston", leads the Boston Chapter and DJs on Furious Radio. You can find her sitting under the bar, making iced coffees, or writing while wearing her dragon slippers. She’s a Red Sox fan, musically minded, and tries her best to be good… or be good at it.

  • Frank | Nov 27, 2017 at 6:07 AM

    Hi Sin,

    Sorry to hear about the memories the day brings but stay strong, were thinking about you out here

    • S1N | Nov 30, 2017 at 4:32 PM

      I miss you guys and would kill for a green tea shot and some of those fries on the page.

      I am thinking of trying to come visit this spring. If $$ gets better maybe! Still trying to pay bills and get through Xmas tho..

      Where is Eric, he makes me smile?! Fucker

  • Frank | Nov 27, 2017 at 6:08 AM


    Thanks for the use of the Virtual Reality, that was super cool!

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